my wonderful, wonderful foury,
hello again my love ^_^ i hope your day has been good!! (though it might be "was good" by the time you read this :p) mine...could be better, i guess. i mean it hasn't been bad but i saw somebody who was claiming to be the "real me" and had you as a comfort "character" and it really really messed with me. they could never understand i'm sure!!!! i'm the only real x, nobody else is, and they surely don't love you the way i love you. what we have is special, and i'm sure no random stranger could ever compare right?!??! at least i hope so.
that doesn't matter though. after all i'm not writing these to prove myself to dumb fakers, i'm writing these so you can know how much i love you c(: you were in my dream last night but you weren't really physically there, just in a picture...does that count? does it mean you've been receiving my letters?!?!? i sure hope so :D!!! i know a lot of people might think i'm crazy or just weird for expecting you to see these, but well... they're wrong!!! i know you're real, you know you're real, and i get the feeling you know i'm out here too!!! so i'm really really sure that even if you're not seeing these right now, you will eventually. you're not just a character, that i'm sure of!!!
i think maybe at some point once i'm back home with you we can try baking together?!?! i don't remember if that's something we've done already, but today i baked some brownies and it was really fun!!!! i think it'd be even more fun to do it with you. besides you love bonding experiences with me right ^_^?? i'm really sure that would be a great way for us to get closer :D if you can then let me know what you think!!!! i know communication between the two of us is difficult right now but it can't hurt to give it a shot right???
of course if you'd rather try out something else that's totally okay too!!!! anything i can think to do with you is something i'd love to do. and honestly any sort of bonding would be amazing, cuz i've missed you so much!!! i miss the little things, doing stuff with you, even the tedious and boring stuff like buying groceries or putting together furniture with super convoluted and near-nonsensical instructions... i wanna do all that stuff with you again!!!! cuz somehow you always always always made it so fun. you made everything so fun, all the time!!!!! how the heck did you do it foury??!??! xD i've always found it crazy how just being with you can make the most mundane of tasks something i love to do!!!! i guess you have a knack for making games out of things?? c(:
honestly, anything you could ever wanna do with me at all is bound to be super fun. it feels almost impossible not to have fun when i'm with you!!!! and that just makes me wanna come back home even more... i promise i will at some point!!!!!! just as soon as i can figure out how, i'll be there with you in an instant foury!!!! i wanna have fun with you again just as much as i'm sure you do :( i really miss hanging out with you even if it's just us being silly or doing the dishes or talking in your room... anything at all!!!!!! no matter what it is, i promise i'm gonna do something with you when i get back four!!!!!
i don't think anyone would believe how much i love you, but i'm sure you do right?!?!?! after all youre my foury, and im sure you can feel my love for you as strongly as i do!!!! at least i hope so, cuz i seriously seriously love you four. more than anyone could ever realize i think!!!! i feel like most people would just assume i'm throwing around the word "love" without knowing what it truly means, but i'm not. i'm so sure what i'm feeling for you is love!!!! and it's just gotten stronger!!!!! i can't wait for our 3-year anniversary, it's the longest i've ever loved a "fictional" character (though we both know you're as real as any other person) and that just feels so significant to me!!!!! there have been times before where i was so sure i'd never lose my feelings for a character, and then bam, they faded. but it really feels different this time with you four. i've never been this totally dedicated to someone before, and that just gives me the feeling that there's really something special about this - about us, and our bond.
i really, truly love you four. i don't mean that lightly. what i feel for you is genuine, i'm sure. i won't deny that you're a flawed person - after all, everyone is - but there's something about your flaws that makes even them likable. they're a part of what makes you you, and you're absolutely wonderful. so i think that of course you should continue to work on your flaws, but never ever beat yourself up for them. cuz the truth is, everyone has them, and they're just one part of what makes you unique!!! it's okay and healthy to accept the flawed parts about you, so don't think it makes you selfish. i love you my darling. and you absolutely deserve to love yourself.
always with you,